Fragments of perception.

i am quite thankful for my uncle. who finally fixed my laptop!!!!! 
it's been down and out since before school let out. 
so that's sweet as hell. 
he's a genious! 

i went to the olive garden tonight with mi familia for ari's birthday dinner thing.  it was tasty.  it was the girls in the family... so jenny, sally, joan, aunt daryl and aunt rose were all there.  me and ari got there last, since we're always late, but we weren't actually late since aunt rose said to come between 5 & 6.  we came at like 5:30 or so.  so not too bad on our part. 
but yeah. 
gave my aunt daryl a ride back to our house because my uncle (who fixed my computer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and my dad went to angelo's for din din. 
i've become really quite close with her recently. it's nice. 
anyways.
i'm kinda grounded? weird. 
i'm not supposed to go anywhere until the house is cleaned to my dad's "satisfaction" whatever the fuck that means.
(never) 
i feel bad because i should have gone to erin's bonfire tonight, but alas i am not allowed even though she lives right down the street from me. 
more than anything though, i'm pissed that my dad fucked up the good week we were having.  we were getting along so well. 
welp, that's over. 
it's not even a big deal. 

monday it shall be a  year since grandma died. it's weird. 
feels so far away and so recent at the same time. 


friday ari will be 15, that's strange as hell. 
she's growing up so fast!

also on friday, i'm visiting pitt. i made an appt. to have a campus tour, talk to people about transfer admissions, and to visit the school of nursing.  
let's hope i actually want to be a nurse, since i'm already putting all this effort into this shit. 



i find myself in the same position that i was last summer.