Fragments of perception.

Shit.

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 18:12:37 GMT

I don't remember what's happened since my last one, but I know I had another test, I missed one question, but I seem to find that I don't really give a fuck anymore. I have my orders, and they're to Germany, I'm going home soon, and there is one more test that matters. The next block of training, the last one of the course, doesnt even matter. Soooo, fuck that. Obviously I'm still going to learn the system because I'll probably see it out there, but it doesn't mean anything for the course. Live has been boring, nothing really to talk about.
Friday night I went to see Wanted. Let me just tell you Angie was looking mighty fine with the hair down and the tattoos. =) After that I went to a friends, where they were drinking, and I showed up after everyone was already trashed and stuff, so I didn't really drink anything. So how about this one guy was completely wasted and fucking stupid. I'm not going into detail, but I shouldnt have to be the babysitter when i go out to have a good time. Generally I dont mind, Im the responsible one so I take it upon myself to make sure everything is okay, but this was just fucked up. Know your god damned limits people, and I couldn't bring myself to let them lay in the parking lot in the storm, among quite a few other things that I won't talk about. I'm really quite frustrated. Last night I had a pretty relaxing night with some other friends, it was okay. I'm just ready to go home.

Three day week, then 4 day weekend. this should be a pretty good week, but we all know it wont, especially since I said it should be.
Gah.

Welp, I think thats all for now.

ejfe;f

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 03:41:34 GMT

So yesterday I got a wonderful cookie formation that spelled out "Happy B day Keith" from dearest Alison. Very yummy. Also included was Waynes World 1 and 2, as well as a wonderful card and note. =)

It pleased me much.

Birthday.

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 04:11:00 GMT

All in all this was a usual day. I got lots of messages and such from people though, and that makes me happy. =)

My friend's wife made me an amazing dinner of shrimp alfredo with lemon cake. Fantastic. So awesome.

Then I come back to the barracks to find out that we're going to have a white glove room inspection in the morning. Eh, I'm not all that concerned. Of course I'm cleaning the crap out of my room, but it may not even happen....and even if it does I have my Germany brief at 6:30, so I'd have to leave early anyway. I suppose it was a pretty good day.

I love my friends.
Thanks alot. =)

Orders

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 03:14:39 GMT

So, I got orders today. I'm going to Germany. YAY

I'll update when I have more info, but I think it'll end up near Frankfurt.

GAH

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:47:01 GMT

So I took the written test today and got a 96! AHHH I'm so angry, then again it was the second highest score, with only one 100. But still, thats my lowest score in a looooooong time. Though we did have 2 people fail, which has never happened before in my class. BUT STILL. GAH

One of the questions I missed was stupid in that one of the charts we had it clearly showed one type of cable used for this particular interface, however, that was somehow the wrong answer, so I don't feel that was my fault. The other one was that I looked the answer up, and then just circled the wrong answer because I'm stupid.

The end.

Yet again

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 20:02:23 GMT

I've been posting alot lately, how odd. I've really been reading alot, I started and finished a book over the weekend, it's been a while since that's happened. This weekend was boring, my roommate was playing my game the whole time. For some reason that annoyed me a bit. No big deal.

Senior platoon sergeant is back from leave, oh joy. Now he's going to inspect the rooms of a squad each morning at 4:30 oh boy, I love getting fucked with. Still no orders and no promotion, which was supposed to have been friday. The one sergeant was supposed to take care of it like a month ago, but no, thats clearly too much to ask....especially when it's their fault anyway. That's really quite bothersome. Why does nothing go smoothly?

So yesterday was fathers day. I knew it, but still forgot/didnt call my dad. And I dont really feel bad about it, he's been a real ass lately, especially when it comes to the whole claiming me on the tax return, thats $400 of my money. I may have been living in his house for HALF of the year, but I was making my own money and buying my own things. To be quite honest, it's not like he needs the damn money anyway, he has much more money than he likes people to believe, and on top of that he took all the money I got as a kid and kept it, so fuck him. What a load of bullshit. Of course we cant forget his complete refusal to pay child support for nearly the entirty of my childhood, and my mom is really quite tight of cash, and always has been. That's not even half of the things pissing me off at the moment, but I don't feel like going on. Where's my vacation?

It's also over 100 degrees, shitty as hell.

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 06:45:25 GMT

Today is friday the 13th, shame nothing interesting happened.

It's also my year mark in the army. congratu-fuckin-lations to me.

I saw that new Adam Sandler movie, Zohan or whatever. It was okay, I guess I wasn't in the right mood for it.

Tomorrow is the army's birthday. I could look up the years, but I don't really want to.
We had this little presentation thing today for it... It was hot outside and annoying. Fantastic.

Smoothies.

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 05:15:25 GMT

So we got a blender. We also have bananas, frozen strawberries and blueberries and lime juice. We use orange juice as a base.

Yummy.

TS

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 23:31:02 GMT

Today I am officially Top Secret qualified.

Yay.

That's it I guess.

Test tomorrow.

I've been reading quite a bit lately, I like it.

Bored.

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 03:16:51 GMT

I am pretty bored. I'm not really sure why.

I want to go home over the 4th. But....I can't. It's way too much money. That makes me sad.

I want orders, and my promotion and to leave.

I don't really like this place anymore. Not that I have for a while.

Gah!
GAH!

GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need a vacation.

For real.

Problems

Sun, 08 Jun 2008 21:38:27 GMT

Allow me to begin by explaining my nice camping trip. We went to a lake not too far off post and set up a tent. It was me, my new roommate, and my married friend and his wife. They also brought their dog. We just hung out and stuff, it was nice to relax and such. It was a good time, but theres really nothing much to say.

I don't know what my problem is, but I think its serious. There is something wrong with me. I can't even explain all the details, but in every situation I notice it. I think I should have an eval, but that usually turns out bad in the army, so theres really nothing I can do about it. I don't have trouble in class or doing things that need done, but when it comes to everything else..i dont know. I wish I could explain this better, and I wish the people around me would read it, but I dont think they would understand or even care. It really seems like a manic depression thing. There are times where I feel everyone loves me and I feel so good and am really excited for no reason. Then with no notice or cause I fall to the opposite. I don't know whats going on.

A good example of that are my last two entries.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 05:14:41 GMT

Odd how quickly that fades...

Switch.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 04:24:29 GMT

So yestrday I switched rooms. My good buddy's roommate left so I moved in. My old roommate makes me crazy. He is so obnoxious and shit. So yeah, this is fantastic. We also got fish. Yay! lol. My old roommate didnt even notice until i was taking my sheets and the last of my books, everything else was already moved, it made me laugh.

So I'm in this fantastic mood, I don't know why, but it's cool.

Inspection

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 14:11:37 GMT

I've been kinda busy lately. Monday night someone seriously pissed of Senior Platoon Sergeant, or so it seemed. Of course he takes it out on us, not saying most didn't deserve it. So tuesday morning at 430 we had a class A, dress uniform, and room inspection. Apparently everyone failed. They didn't even check mine haha. Whatever, this crazy shit usually happens every couple months before a 4 day or something else. But it had been many months since the last one, actually most of the people in the company haven't experienced it yet, so they were all freaking out and such, very amusing. Anyway, he made the same plans today. However, he slipped and mentioned that his leave started today even though he said he would come in here anyway to fuck with us. So there is the reason behind this, he was leaving for a bit and needed to make sure we didn't forget who he was and what he can do. So this morning at 430, no class A's though, we did the whole inspection thing. Another sergeant came in, and the room was fantastic, as always. The end.

Today starts being back on shift, finally. I have mid shift this time, rather than morning. So I get to go back to sleep after PT, ie now.

P.S. I love having good friends.

See ya.

Wow

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 07:57:12 GMT

I can't believe it's June. It will be one year since I left PA in a couple weeks....The sad part is that I've only been back once in that whole year. Then my birthday is a few days after that. 19 is a boring age. I doubt anything will happen for my birthday, but I don't mind. Same thing as last year.

Update.

Thu, 29 May 2008 04:19:04 GMT

I keep saying im going to talk about the ftx, but somehow I dont think im going to, thats why i havent updated because i want to do that. I tested out of my current class, 100 on both tests. Started new class today, its okay so far. So my cousin is now in rehab, im not sure what all for, but hes been into some crazy shit at times. I'll send him some money, its like $5 a day and he has to buy whatever else. Today after class in formation, which i was going to skip, we did all this military drills and shit. Senior Platoon sergeant is pissed for whatever reason and is reminding us that he is not lax, ect. It was shitty. It lasted for over 30 minutes, the main problem is college class starts at 1800, we were there doing that crap until a quarter after or so. So shitty.

Also, last week i started on part 2 of that little story. but i dont know if i want this to actually be part two. If its going to be a longer, more involved one, then it will probably end up as 3, but if its shorter it will be 2. Oh well, doesnt matter, I'll write it anyway. I havent gotten too far yet.

Lately I've been pretty depressed, and I wonder if its actually an issue. Its pretty much constant and my mood will get shitty for little or no reason. Its fine, I still function but sometimes im surprised at how i look at certain things when Im not feeling too grand. I don't know if I'd say im worried about myself, but perhaps kind of. Oh well, life goes on.

No orders yet, what bastards.

I think I have nothing else to say. Lalala, I still may talk about the ftx if i think about it sometime im free.

Tue, 20 May 2008 12:35:02 GMT

So far as I can tell, the enemy of your enemy is far more likely to be your friend than a friend of a friend.

...To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.

Tue, 20 May 2008 12:29:03 GMT

I really intend to discuss the FTX in detail, I simply lack time....I want it to be a good one.

However, I found this through a friend I used to work with, whom I miss greatly. But what else is new.

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Ftxxx

Sun, 11 May 2008 17:57:12 GMT

That makes it sound like porn, lol. But no. I wish I had more time to write about it, but I only have a few hours. So, in a week, when I'm done I'll write all about what happened on the ftx. It's half over, and they let us come back and take a shower, sweeet.

See you in a week.

Oh, also. Last night at some point I had a dream. I had a terminal illness and died. The weird part is I felt it., all the emotions and stuff. It was weird. It was like I found out right before I died. I didn't have time to do anything and no one was around. All I said was tell my mom thanks for everything. Then closed my eyes and felt the life leave my body. It was so weird, even to think about it now. And what's more, I had this dream before. Different illness, but same idea. So weird.

FTX

Fri, 02 May 2008 21:40:50 GMT

So....starting monday I'll be in the field for 2 weeks. No showers, no phone. I think it might be fun. I hope so anyway. So if you're wondering, thats where I'll be. I don't feel to chipper right now. All my friends are getting orders to Korea, and I'm not getting anything. I think that means I'm not going to Korea, which is somewhat good, but everyone else is...=( I think I'll end up here....thanks to my high average. That was a bad choice. All the high average people end up here...I really really don't want to. Gah.

Skinless

Thu, 01 May 2008 03:41:49 GMT

Okay, so news. Sunday I went to a friends and we hung out by the pool for a while, apparently too long. I got burned, badly. I never burn, what a jip. So monday I started in the new school house. Class started normal time monday. Thats bad because this week is combatives. That + burn = death. So I made some bullshit excuse to go to sick call because if we get sunburned we can get punished, article 15 because its destruction of government property lol. So it's my job to see that no one finds out. Moday in class they told us we were moving to morning shift, 6-noon. Bad freakin ass. Means no pt with everyone else. We also got weapons for this week. We do pt with the sergeant in our class after class, but since we had weapons he was like fuck it, so we're not doing i this week. You cant take the weapons in the gym. After class tuesday I noticed that my burn was blistering, how wonderful. So then today was average. May I point out that class is easy as hell. We have 3 positions, 9 people. One person per position. So most of the day is spent sitting, its niiiiice. After class today we had CLFX training. Basically we're in a big truck convoy and we react to enemy contact and we get on and off the truck and tread casualities and such. Well my blistered skin is all torn off. Thanks body armor, I think I'll take the shot next time. So now my skin hurts.

I need to pack for the FTX next week, inspection is tomorrow at 1630, dumb. I already wore 4 days worth of crap. Maybe i'll do laundry after class or something. We spend 2 weeks in the field starting monday. I have to pack, perhaps after class.

Gah, life is so boring suddenly, when it shouldnt be.

Range

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 01:09:25 GMT

Today wasnt too bad. Im just back and its 545pm. Formation was 5 this morning. I was 4th group to go. I was cleaning weapons by 12:30. So its all good. They took my weapon first try, like last time. =) Woo.

So now I guess I'm going to hang with a friend or friends. =)

See ya.

It's been a while

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 13:29:33 GMT

So this week we got weapons again. And we're senior class at our school house. After the 25th we'll be in the other one, three more months after that. Yay. Anyway, we were told we had 2 hours of training every night after class. It was stupid. The first night only about half of us actually did anything, I just stood there. So Tuesday wasntany better. I did do the training thing, however. Wednesday we just and an inspection thing for our gear, that was nice. Thursday we went to the EST 2000. That electronic range thing. I got out of class at lunch to do it because I had a test in the morning. I was done for the day at like 2:45. Yesterday was just a normal day. So I can't complain about that. It was supposed to be that crap all week. Thursday I had the windows test everyone fears. I guess its the hardest test here or something. I thought it was easy. I got a perfect, as did Sergeat. I hope today isnt going to be too much of a pain in the ass, though I think it will. Oh well.

YES

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 03:17:08 GMT

I went swimming today. Out doors.

Suck on that.

Life.

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 19:33:54 GMT

Fairly casual weekend. Friday night I went over to a buddy's place. I was supposed to spend a couple hours hanging out there, then go to my usual friends place for the night. Well apparently he decided he wanted to go to bed. So I felt bad that this guy and his wife got stuck with me. They say they didn't mind though. So then I came back here Saturday morning and hung out for a bit. Didn't really do anything. Then I went over to a friends house. The one I was supposed to hang out with originally on friday. We had quite a few people over there. Me and 3 other guys from the barracks came over, it was my friend and his wife's place, so they were there, then another friend and his wife come over. They live in the same apartment complex. We had a good night, was fun. We went outside to smoke and one friend walks out with a tampon. He tries to light that and smoke it, for some odd reason. Failing to do that, he pulls the actual tampon from the plastic thing and lights it on fire. Then they all proceed to light their cigarettes from the flaming tampon. After that the flame was starting to creep up the string and burn his hand. So he drops it and we just stare at it as it burns. I even took a picture on my phone. I don't know why. Maybe you just had to be there, but I find it very amusing. It was a good night. Then we came back here at 5am and I went to bed. Though I did get up at 8:30. Don't know why.

Then this woman calls my phone and asks who I am. What the hell, you called me. Apparently my number was on her phone, but I know I didn't call. I don't know her, and I don't know anyone from the area. Plus, I was in class when the call was made and my phone was in my room turned off. So whatever woman. And shes really paranoid, and weird. It was an odd conversation.

We get weapons again this week. Barf.